Since retiring my days have been full. I run my own business, I go to meetings for my organization, and I go to WW every Tuesday morning. Therefore, I am pretty well organized on what I can do and what I must do.
Since May I have been on a road where I will do everything to make sure I lose weight and eat healthy. And so I do not deprive myself. I have a glass of wine now and then (I would drink more than one before) and even have dessert if I so want it.
And so I came up to this dilemma recently. Went out to dinner with hubby for our anniversary. Had a great dinner, a glass of wine but had decided I will not have dessert.
But we know the owner of the restaurant and he, being the great guy he is, made sure we went home with dessert on the house.
OK, there were 3 of them. We decided to celebrate by eating a half each. Now there are two left. And they are calling me….but…I will not, I will not.
We all come in different shapes and sizes. But some of us tend to be bigger than others. And so all my life I have fought with being overweight. It started when I was 11 and didnt stop. Oh, I should say it stopped once – for a few months I actually went down to normal weight…and then I went up, and up, and up.
It wasnt what I wanted but it happened…why? I could probably tell you a million reasons but why put blame on anything else other than ME. So we will skip all the reasons why and just say that I finally decided enough was enough. I kept telling myself it is what it is and at my age who cares how heavy I am.
But I do care…not that I plan to be a model, but being healthy is first and foremost. And so I can tell you all the different diets I have been through – and I have gone through all of them, yes, all of them. From the crazy ones to the healthy ones, to the ones that actually give you the food to microwave, to the ones I drink, to the starvation ones, no carb ones, etc.
I had been on Weight Watchers with hubby who lost 90 lbs and I lost 10 – so I gave up. A bit disappointed but something clicked finally in my head (because that is where weight loss starts) and I returned to Weight Watchers. Their new Freestyle program was different and I just got up and did it….I even did it before a big party I was attending 4 days after I joined.
And this is what I think…I am on the right track because after the party I stepped on the scale and lost 3 lbs. I have been going back every week no matter what. I do not miss a meeting – even when hubby was in the hospital, I went to the meeting and then to the hospital. There is a great group of people, a wonderful moderator and they are my inspiration……and to date (10 weeks) I have lost 20 lbs. I still have a lot to go but only by hanging on, sticking with the program (which is one I do not deprive myself with) will I reach my goal. I am happier, healthier and can move around more. My clothes are bigger and my knees dont hurt as much. I can slide in and out of my car easier and even those steps are not an obstacle. Imagine how I will feel when I get to my goal weight? My blood pressure is lower and I will be making my doctor happy at the next visit…..even more, I am making myself happier.
So here we are 16 days into the new year and what? Yes, it is a cold one (hate it) but there are greater things coming – like spring, warm weather, sitting on the patio, and of course, baseball.
In the meantime, the plan is to eat right and healthy. So I have started a new way of dieting (yes, I know, the new year and we all diet) but since the cold weather keeps me in a lot, I have to stop binge eating and eating all the wrong stuff. So while I keep cookies in the house for the grandkids (and it’s hard) I try not to eat them (emphasis on the word – try) My day consists of a healthy breakfast and a full one because that is my fuel for the day.
Lunch is usually a smoothie along with my Hunger Block and this keeps me for the afternoon – in between I drink water or tea, or sometimes have a piece of fruit and then have dinner early (around 5 pm) which is usually protein and vegetable and a small carb….pasta, potatoes or bread but just a little.
I have a scale but hate getting on it so I only do it once in a while. If I dont see the numbers, I cant complain and feel depressed.